losing.

hari ny gilee, otak amier + otak halim + otak jakhubhai + my brain. tottaly gileee. especially time physics. memekak jea keje tanpa arah tuju. 1 kelas marah, who cares, i got my tension release. only fatimah know how i feel :| thanks for intro.

my true purpose is, yet my post have been an issues for this few days. some of them, no most of them surely think im a jerk. yeah because im thinking like that right now. so i want to say SORRY for every single words for the last few post. its a blog. i make it like my diary. but im letting u all read it. i dont know why? LOL. mybe because i dont have anyone to talk about with my own really problem. my mom? she's busy taking care of others and she's not really good at this sosial thingy. my brother? hes too busy even i text like 2-3 times he dint reply. then he call late at night telling he will not coming to home, working issues. okay fine. my elder sister? i admid she has many experiences but, shes to farr, i need someone who is near. besides she has a son to care off. my younger sister? im not very GOOD with her. always has something to fight off T.T. lastly my dad? hes working overseaaaa, how the hell im going to contact him? besides. he hate when im talking about sosial =.= . so what? im the one left. im relying in my own friends.

i have a close friends to talk about my problem. but still, i cant find a friend who is really care about others, the only one i knew was zack, god i miss you so much zacky, he died in 2007 in a car accident, bulan syawal, otw back to his village for RAYA. the only note that he left to me is 'ajie, if anything happen to neither you or me, our bonds still hold the momment that we shared together since we first met, be tough for your upcoming journeys' thats it. oh yesh he teach me alot of things. then when i came up with a friend that do something like THIS. i cried for a momment. mybe its my first time. idk. im hopping i came up with an idea to solve this thing. even im a prs. this sucks.

Enough with the emo, lol. anyway im sorry again, to him, mr.blue guy. im not really mad at you. im still smiling at you in class, pjk, see? im okayy with you. HAHA. but things change abit now dont you? i dont want to make a step if you wont. lets be fair (; i know you can. please dont let things like me and aizad happen again. that would be sucks.

*oh and the girls, LOL i dont have any hard feeling to all of you. be cool. thanks for the girl that text me telling about it. but i cant, to shy! u know. and. things not in agood conditions yet.